January 2009
i miss jojo.
her songs are amazing. i also miss paula de anda, shes coming out with a CD this year, i’m excited. i wish jojo could come out with another CD. aha, their songs just like, i dunno, they are just so relatable, at least to my life, in a weird way. it’s not like all the lyrics are EXACT, but theya re pretty close. (=
current song: all my life - kci & jojo
weeeelllll.
i want to fall in love.
i want an unconditional love.
a love i know is guarenteed.
i want somebody who wants me.
i want to feel wanted.
i want to feel special.
i want to feel wanted and special by a boy.
a boy who loves me, romantically.
a boy i will love back.
january 27, 2008
that day will forever live in my heart as a horrible day. how could you break up with someone on an anniversery? seriously. aha, i’m over it now, but like, looking back in the past year & the way i have dealt with all of this, i could have handled it better. i know i am a big baby & all that, but like, i’m just such a dateless baby loser. and like, i dunno. i’m not into...
dateless loser
hello, my name is brianna and i will never ever have another boyfriend/date/lover/whatever ever again in my life. nobody likes me. i’m ugly and fat and gross. cuz every boy wants to be with someone like me. i’m giving up, it’s not use to try anymore because nobody will ever like me back. the end.
enGROSS
sitting in english while weltchek rambles on about random boring unnecessary stuff. winterball in less then a week though! i have the cutest dress and i can’t wait to wear it! i need to go through my mom’s shoes to see if she has any that will match my dress more. man, i know i have always said that i would never shop in forever 21, but zayyyuumm, they have some cute stuff! just some...
chem
so boring i swear to gooooodddd. time to do a myspace survey (=
1. What was the highlight of your week? Noah was born! 2. Whose car were you in last? My dadddddy’s. 3. When is the next time you will kiss someone? I have no idea. Haha. 4. What color shirt are you wearing? I am wearing too shirts. White cami + black polo. 5. How long is your hair? Prettttty long. 6. Are you good looking?...
collab
lala, jessica is behind me :]
listening to music, HEKKKKUHHH bored up in collab.
stresss of the applications and schedule shieeet. ughhh.
welp, i’m bored now, so yahhh.
current song: corona and lime - shwayze
IT'S NOT FAIR
HOW CAN YOU GO AND POST THAT? NOW I CAN’T HATE YOU AND WANT YOU TO BE OUT OF MY LIFE! WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO ME? YOU MAKE ME GO AROUND ON A ROLLAR COASTER WITH YOU AND IT IS NOT FUN! i just can’t believe you.
current song: i can’t do it alone - 3OH!3
hm.
i think i blog more then anyone i know, i feel weird about it, haha. i just have a lot of feelings, SHE DOESN’T EVEN GO HERE! i lahhhv mean girls (:
but uhm, hey, thanks for messing with my emotions, because hey guess what? strong emotions leads to people becoming physically ill. i researched. thanks. you just care so much about me.
i don’t want to go to school tomorrow. well, first...
if you just realize...
song lyrics are amazing. i don’t care what song it is, they always speak to me.
is it so sick to become literally sick from thinking about a person//situation//actions so much? it literally makes me sick to my stomach. i can’t stand it. i really just wish something horrible will happen to you to make you realize how much pain and heart-ache you put me through. i just hate how you...
missing you
i love this song so much. like i cry everytime i hear it. it’s by 1st lady, i also love her song never be replaced. lyrics:
oh oh Oh I'm missin' you Baby I'm missin' you oh oh oh oh Baby I'm missing you Things'll never be the same without you... What did I do to deserve this I didn't even get one last kiss, from you Oh baby God took your love from me He needed an angel so it seems I need...
time to really blog...
it don’t bother me THAT much, i think i over-exagerate. but it does bother me at the same time, like i really don’t get my feelings. which is why walk away - paula deanda describes my situation practically perfectly. i just want to win, i want to be the first one to move on & all that jazz. but leahy did point out to me that i have moved on, i’m just not with anybody. and for...
“Walk Away” I’m gonna remember...
oh i fcking hate this bitch
go away with your happy life. please. you little punk ass bitch. i swear to fukkin god i wanna just rip your hair out and tell you to get out of my life. but i’m glad to see you happy, as much as that sickens the hell out of me. GOD, you little bitch. i can’t stand it. just please, hide your personal life from me. i swear to godddd. this frustrates me so much, i can’t stand it. i...
hello.
so my phone. beeetch, this sucks so hard.
gonna go get my phone switched? I HOPE SO!
current song: true to me - metro station
i need a social life
i can’t remember the last time i hung out with friends from school outside of school. all i do is homework, clean, & take care of other people. i feel like i am growing apart from everyone.
current song: paradise city - guns n roses
true feelings
everybody takes advantage of me. nobody really likes me. i’m used. nobody likes to hang out with me & i’m not the first choice. makes me feel very sad. my family is falling apart 7 so is my social life. i just miss the way things used to be when i was people’s friend & i was happy with good grades. some of it is coming back. the grades part. just do me a favor right now...
this is almost
as much crying as i have done since junior retreat.
current song: this is halloween - panic! at the disco
shitcrackers
that just fucking rained on my damn parade.
current song: take my hand - the cab
`ello gov'nah
i <3 english accents. THE END :D
i haven’t blogged in quite a bit, like ACTUALLY blogged. so `er goes.
second semester. i will do good. don’t know if i am doing softball. we’ll see. i want to. just depends on stuff. uhm, ashley pillay gave me some camp rock stuff today, god i miss that girl SO much. so glad i have major religions with her tomorrow! digital photography should...
i hate my house
you don’t even know.
current song: none, watching the secret life of the american teenager marathon